what's there left to say - continued

what is there left to say? this question has really left me speechless, but not fingerless, so on i type.

from a guy who seems to have absolutes on his mind and is quick to avoid modernism or post-modernism and whatever else is going to come after that, i can't say that i have an absolute answer to this. this question has left me a bit stunned because i realize my error in some of my writing and in some of the ways that i have dealt with people.

i was so confident that my way was right and don't get me wrong. i do believe in absolutes because, to be frank, they exist. there is God. there is sin. there is salvation. there is heaven and there is hell. and i know that not everyone believes this or knows this. but my error lied in the fact that i came from such an arrogant place that i had ignored the heart of the matter. i had all the "right" answers, all the "good" advice, but i lacked compassion and sympathy. i desired sacrifice, not mercy. i did not understand in what was being said, i only heard what was wrong and wanted to correct it like some lazy Solomon, who got his answers from google. so i ask for forgiveness in my lack of understanding, in listening, in loving. and that brings us to the question: what else is there to say?

in hope that this question will expand upon this question, may i add what else is there to do?

after you say i love you. after you marry. after you live joyfully for so many years. what else is there to say and do? after confessing my belief in absolutes, dare i answer with one? no, i won't. at least i don't believe that these answers are the only ones, i'm sure there are others. there are many answers to this question and i can think of a couple right now. that's right, i have more than one answer and it's for me as well as for the originator of the question that it may be encouraging and help him.

keep growing. obvious i know. what else is there to say or do? find out. keep seeking and trying to find out what to say and/or do. grow in that love, in understanding one another. complacency is an enemy and like you want to grow as a person and in one's career, we must fight to grow. why? reasonable follow up question and another obvious answer to why we should fight.

to enjoy. we enjoy love. love wouldn't be worth doing, let alone fighting for, if it wasn't enjoyable. there is joy in love and we should enjoy that or else it'll just pass by or, even worse, die.

so what else is there to say and do? i say this in hope: a lot.

what's left to say?

i'll have to apologize, i'm really not the type to open myself up to public forum; i usually don't like any opinion but my own... i guess this is more of an, "ask yourself," kind of question.

a major goal of this blog, and part of it's fundamental flaw is the fact that it's based around there being something -- something that moves you, that drives you, that makes you feel anything other than what your norm is. i think that by being the people that we are, the fact that we're putting words down and letting it float in cyberspace for the better part of forever means that at some point, what we had to say made us feel something. that for those 10-20 minutes we actually felt something.

i try to diversify my writing, i do. in the past two months i've posted into three blogs. in the past half year, it was something like four. it's a way of keeping organized; by audience and subject matter. today's post is very personal, but i think the subject matter is interesting... though a lot of it depends on the experiences that you've had and where you are with people in general.

the question is, "what do you say after, 'i love you'?"

do you tell them that you're always going to be there for them?
that you'll never be more than a phone call away?
that you're like brothers/sisters, and that you want to watch them grow?
that if the world was meeting its doom, you'd run to their house first?

what about her?
what's left to tell her after you tell her that you love her?
that you love the person she is now, and that you will always love who she is?
that you have no idea what the future brings, but you want to be there when it happens?
that she's the last and first things you think about?
that throughout the day, you're working your ass off because you want her to be proud of you when the night comes rolling in?

thoughts on the fairly recent.. but it's late. more later.

i've got my weaknesses,
but i'm going without them tonight
i'm making myself a promise
that every day i'm going to be a little stronger
that i'm holding on to what i've got a little longer


i'm going to be stronger
because i need myself to be
because when the day comes,
i don't get a break
when the morning shows itself
i'm going to be ready to prove myself,
again and again