boy meets girl

in all reality joe would never have talked or gotten close to anna. joe was content with his circumstance; he had grown numb to any guilt or shame that he experienced after every release. and anna was lonelier than she had ever been, but had discovered the other side of internet pornography. she had discovered that there were girls with websites that showed videos and pictures of them naked and performing sexual acts. there were levels of intensity ranging from fetishes to hardcore acts. anna wasn't shocked that the girls would do these things, but of the overwhelming attention that each of these girls received as a result of their websites. anna decided to try it out, but had no idea on how to start a website. joe spent all day and night on his computer so inevitably he picked up some tricks and decided to take computer science classes in school. it happened one day that anna walked in to the computer science classroom after school to ask the teacher on how to start a website. it also happened that on rare occasion joe was in the classroom making up work that he had missed on a "sick" day. he had spent that morning burning with desire and decided to lie to his parents and called in sick. one may say that God brought these two together for good purposes, one may call it
fate or destiny, others will call it luck, but this was the day that boy met girl.

"hello, i had some questions about starting up a website," anna said to the teacher. she was a little nervous in asking, wondering if the teacher knew her true intentions and would tell her to repent and sin no more. but there was no such response; the teacher, too busy helping another student, pointed to joe and said, "oh, umm, i'm a little busy, honey. i'm sorry. but that young man over there can help you out. joe's handy with that stuff." the teacher went back to helping the student while anna looked over at joe. joe always brought his headphones to class so he could listen to music while working. at that moment he was listening to a radiohead song called, "nude." joe was falling into a trance thinking about the lyrics to the song.
"don't get any / big ideas / they're not going to happen / you paint yourself white / and fill up with noise / but there'll be something missing / now that you've found it / it's gone / now that you feel it / you don't / you've gone off the rails / so don't get any / big ideas / they're not gonna happen / you'll go to hell / for what your / dirty mind / is thinking."
joe snapped out of his trance as soon as the last line was sung. he saw a reflection off his monitor and turned around to see that anna was behind him. joe didn't know what to say. in front of him was the girl that his friends had warned him of, but he wasn't scared or appalled. he was intrigued and surprised that the girl in front of him was, indeed, that girl. anna was beautiful, but she did not exude the confidence or pride that many beautiful girls thought they had the right to as goddesses. anna gave off the aura of a common girl, a humble innocence that joe couldn't understand. anna stared at joe's facial features; he was good looking though only when one got a good look at him. at first impression anna thought that joe looked rather mean and then she looked into his eyes and saw that not only that there was a certain beauty to them, but that there was an emptiness that she wanted to fill. anna felt secure when she looked at joe, not because he had confidence, but because she felt joe's potential to forgive. joe felt vulnerable as she was standing in front of him; she was like a dirty mirror that had to be wiped off to see the reflection of your soul. he felt a pang of dark hopelessness as he looked into her eyes because he wa reminded of his own shame and guilt that he had thought he lost so long ago. "joe? hi, my name is anna. i was hoping that you could help me." joe winked his eyes a few times and said, "oh. hi. i'm joe," he had already said this as he realized that she knew what his name was. he quickly recovered with, "so what do you need help with?" "um. i want to start a website, but i'm not sure how to or even where to begin." "oh, ok. umm. can i ask what kind of website?" "oh... it's a personal website." "what do you mean?" "well, it's for me." "you mean like a blog or something?" "oh no. it's... well... could you just tell me how to start one?" "oh yea, sorry, i guess i can help you with that." anna sat down and joe took her through basic steps to starting a website, but the directions grew more complicated as time went on and anna got more and more confused. there was so much detail that there was no way anna could learn all this in a short time so she decided to take a chance.
chance. "actually, do you want to make the website for me? i can pay you, well not now, but later." "uhh, i'm not sure if i could really do that." joe had no doubt in his ability, but was unsure of what form the payment would come in. was he ready to finally give into his desire for flesh like his friends and was he ready to give himself to anna? anna replied, "oh, please. i really can pay you. i need this." joe felt some compassion for anna and was willing to go without payment, but answered with a "ok." anna asked, "can you do it anywhere or does it have to be in the school?" "it can be anywhere. i can do it at my house if you want." "ok, great! so do you have time tonight? or is that too soon?" "well, i guess i can start tomorrow, but i kind of have to know, what kind of website do you want to start?" anna was afraid of involving joe or anyone from the start of this endeavor because of the high risk that she would be denied or betrayed. but anna was honest and she knew someone would find out sooner or later so she replied with, "i'll tell you tomorrow. is it ok if i come over then?" joe was a little nervous in having anna over his house, but could not fight the fact that his fantasy was extending into reality as he spoke to anna. "sure, ok. how about after school?" "sounds good, i'll meet you on your bus." "ok, cool. it's number 11." "ok, then. see you tomorrow. thanks." joe was left sitting and wondering what could happen the next day as anna thought about how the next day would either be the beginning or the end.